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DarthCyrus
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Country: United States
State: South Carolina
Metro: Columbia
Gender: Male
Interests: Sowing seeds, waiting for fruit to yeild, and then reaping harvest. Also language, Church History, history, the natural world, psychology, theology, All the things God uses to bring glory to Himself including His Son, the unfathomable complexity of God, as I approach the infinite in the finite, I voyage a journey that will never be completed on this earth, and I am satisfied.
Expertise: clawing with every ounce of my being through whatever it takes toward my goal.
Occupation: Advertising
Industry: Computers (Internet)
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  tmmybomb
Member Since:
4/14/2006
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| I've got it. I see sometimes when people like Gina Russo write, when Stu puts something together, when Mike Eleazer picks up any instrument, when Ben Bixbe teaches, incredible gifts being exercized. I've always been impressed, and sometimes felt kindof envious, not in a sinful way. I've since realized I don't have an awesome natural talent in anything really, but I've been blessed because I see people different then other people see them. It's almost like I see them at the peak of their potential, what they could be, where theyre going. My buddy Zach I vividly see him with a crowd following him around late at night asking questions trying to pick his brain for knowledge in how to build a successful business. It's almost like the force. I see the ripple actions create, and that is cool. I'm excited for the future and I know that if part of discernment really is seeing people like where they're gonna be not where they are, and helping choreograph the ripple. I know that the people around me are gonna change the face of the world. | | |
| Peace is a lie there is only passion Through Passion I gain Strength Through Strength I gain Power Through Power I gain Victory Through Victory my chains are broken. | | |
| I stand on the familiar side of a door I've never been through, and I hear you calling.
And I told you I'd follow. I told you Id follow.
But this is where I live, and I know where things are my friends my bed my remote control,
but I told you I'd follow. I told you I'd follow.
I know that on the other side I won't recognize the world or myself when I get there,
but I told you I'd follow I told you I'd follow.
With white, sweating knuckles the door knobs turn and quietly the words whisper
I told you I'd follow. I told you I'd follow.
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| I really don't want to be at CIU at all, with the exception of the
people i really don't think there is anything for me here right now. I
wish that God would let me know if I was in the right place or not. I
emphatically hate my job being a chef. I got stranded monday morning
on the way to work when I had gotten my second flat tire of the
weekend. My boss just left me out there for like an hour and a half
before he called me and asked me if I was still coming to work, and
that somebody could finally come pick me up. By that time I had walked
an hour to a tire place waited another half before he opened, and was
in the process of fixing the tire.
Here at CIU I love the people here professors and everything, but I
really don't want to be here. I have 2 exams tomorrow and a huge 15+
hour assignment that I couldnt get ready for because I was doing things
that I believe I was supposed to be doing. If I finish them it will be
the result of an all nighter, which I don't want to do. Right now I'm
just playing mental ping pong in whether or not I should even spend my
time here. That kind of thing makes it a little hard to focus on
hermenuetics.
Faith is doing fine. Still love Jesus. know God is sovereign. Not suffering in that area. Just angry and confused. | | |
| God has shown me something that I think was pretty cool. Through most of my blogs over the past few months the main theme I guess, as you can see if you look, has just been me figuring out who I am. I appreciate you who few have kinda grown with me. I'm not perfect, but I am the man I want to be, and that's cool. What God told me is "Enjoy being you." I realize that I'm gonna sound a little new ageish, but I'm not. The glory goes to Jesus, the Spirit, and Father. A lot of times I imagined myself to be a blank canvas so God could do what He wanted with me, and thought the less I'm here, the more God will be glorified. Which is very close to being true. It's not about you it's about Him. It's about the people made by God worshipping other crap. But you are more than a blank canvas just waiting for God to make a beautiful painting. God started painting when you were conceived, and now you're an exquisite sculpture masterpeice made by The Creator of the Universe. That's cool. It's true that sin got the whole picture screwed up and out of whack, but when you come to Christ, all of the picture doesn't go away, just the stains. God doesn't make junk, and everything He made is useful, and worthwhile. Creation got twisted, and lacking, but you are not junk. If you are in Christ and covered with His blood, not only are you not junk but you are a cleansed masterpeice. Your worth comes from Who made you, and the One cleaned your slate. If you realized how valuable you really were, it would blow your mind. If somebody needed to hear that that was for you. It's true God loves you wants to speak with you. As for me, gonna be a busy weekend, herm. midterm got announced many hours of work will go into that. Pulling an all nighter tonight helping out with International friendship ministry hosting a very late night session leaving there to go to work. Either playing capture the flag saturday night or crashing. Who knows? Sunday will be exciting. I am hanging out with a really cool girl for most of the day. If you go to my church or play frisbe with me you'll meet her. She's cooler and cooler the more I learn about her. Well, that's all from me tonight I gotta wash my work uniform for tomorrow morning before I go to IFM tonight. L8a | | |
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